Stars For The Weary

I can't seem to construct intelligent sentences at the moment. Work is rather trying today. I'm gonna stick with grrr, that seems to sum it all for me.

I realize it's not the greatest photo, I took it with my phone's camera after all, but I just really like the way all the different lights in it work together to create something a little magical, of course that could just be me, lol.

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I stumbled on this poem a year ago, maybe two. It may do nothing for you, but for me, at the time, standing there in the bookstore reading it, it was like the world went away, like I couldn't breathe. It just resonated, just really clicked and meant something to me.

"Things"

What happened is, we grew lonely
living among the things,
so we gave the clock a face,
the chair a back,
the table four stout legs
which will never suffer fatigue.

We fitted our shoes with tongues
as smooth as our own
and hung tongues inside bells
so we could listen
to their emotional language,

and because we loved graceful profiles
the pitcher received a lip,
the bottle a long, slender neck.

Even what was beyond us
was recast in our image;
we gave the country a heart,
the storm an eye,
the cave a mouth
so we could pass into safety.

Lisel Mueller

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I really don't think any of you would find this spoilery, but I'm putting it under a cut all the same, because one can never be too careful I suppose.

( Dean would be proud. )

I snapped a photo of the caption and it's now serving as the wallpaper on my phone. Why? Because clearly my dorkiness knows no shame.

Happy Happy Happy Birthday to the coolest girl I know. Happy Birthday Barb!

You're not just one of the greatest people alive, you're also one of the greatest friends imaginable.

My hope, my wish this day is for you to be inundated with blessings, gifts, and joy beyond measure. No one is more deserving of all the best life has to offer. No one else I know deserves planet sized truckloads of happiness as much as you do.

I do have a birthday box o' fun that will be making it's way to you shortly. I apologize that it's not there in time for your actual birthday, but it will get there soon dear, that's a promise.

Have the best, brightest, most wonder filled, crazy, fantastic birthday, Barb. You are awesome times awesome and I hope your day turns out as amazing as you are.

*Tackle Hug!!!*

P.S.
I was planning to get you that Yak T-shirt Dei got you (or I can only assume it's the same one, how many Yak t-shirts can there be out there, you know?). So, yeah, she beat me too it, but I want you to know I had the same very plan. :D XD
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I'm a bit behind and out of sorts lately, so this thank you is belated and overdue.


Thank you, thank you, thank you, Maygra, for the virtual chocolates and most of all for the kind thought. You never cease to make my day. *Hugs you like crazy*

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I fell
Because I feel
Like everything is easy
I cascade through the places previously locked to me
I drift a fool wrapped in sweetness and your voice
Always being this blue, this green, dappled in sunlight kisses
Sound washes over me, like it's the first time
Like it's all I've ever known, it's how I breathe now, how I survive
All the universe relying on this, you and me
I'm over, over the initial drop, echoes humming in my mind
I fall, I fell
Thinking
Of you

10/9/05

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I'm going to be out of reach of the internet for a couple weeks or so. I mention this so none of you feel ignored. I have plenty of changes to share, but no time to share any of them at the moment. Have a fantastic couple of weeks everyone.

Peace & Love,
Red

P.S.
Andie I'm sorry I won't be around to wish you happy birthday, but I'm wishing it now. Have a beautiful, special, and absolutely perfect birthday. I'm wishing you the best day possible, honey. *HUG*

Thursday (otherwise known as Dean Winchester's birthday, lol) I celebrated my own birthday a little early with Barb. She took me out to dinner, which was fantastic. We talked about this, that, and the other thing, and we ended up laughing at how wonderful and simultaneously dreadful fandom can be.

After dinner we sat and listened to Larry Murante play at Crossroads. The guy has quite the voice on him. He's this terrific mixture of Colin Hay and Bruce Hornsby with an extra bit oomph that's all his own.

When the musical portion of the evening was over we wandered around Barnes and Noble misbehaving and being generally silly. You know how a group of lions is a pride, a group of crows is a murder, and a group of bears is a sleuth? Well, since we couldn't find a decent description of a collection of jellyfish (most books just called them jellies, boooring) we've decided a group of jellyfish from here on out shall be known as a smucker of jellyfish. Go on, use it, you know you want to. ;)

Yesterday, my actual birthday was very mellow. I conned Kyle into marathoning a bunch of Supernatural with me before he had to work. Mostly I just spent the day receiving well wishes from family and friends, which was pretty wonderful. Thanks guys. :D

This morning I dragged myself out bed (I just didn't sleep well for whatever reason last night) and chauffeured Kyle to work. At the moment I'm cleaning the place up a bit because I have friends from Wisconsin (Kelly and Kim) flying in later this morning. They'll be here all week but aren't here exclusively just to visit me, they have another friend out here and they'll be staying with her. I'll be tagging along with their sightseeing here and there when possible.

Barb, if you're reading this, I still expect to hang with you whenever you've free time this week. There's no escaping it, just consign yourself to it now. :P

Have a great weekend everybody. :)

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At least that's what I told Barb after we saw "Cloverfield" last night. Kyle, Barb, and I went to an earlier showing yesterday evening, and let me just say, "wow". Okay, admittedly I am a bit of a Abrams fanboy, but honestly, impartially, this was a terrific flick. The story was well crafted and the actors did a wonderful job of drawing me in. As for the scary stuff (of which there is much), it was genuinely scary. I'm not easily freaked out by movies, but I was covering my eyes repeatedly and squirming in my theatre seat. Even after the film was over and I was home safe and sound, the hairs on the back of my neck continued to prickle. Good times people, good times. :D

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"I'd visited enough Poetry to know that it's an emotionally draining place and on a completely different level. Whereas story is processed in the mind in a straightforward manner, poetry bypasses rational thought and goes straight to the limbic system and lights it up like a brushfire. It's the crack cocaine of the literary world."

Jasper Ffrorde, Thursday Next: First Amongst Sequels

I just did laundry.

I offered to do Kyle's for him too since he had class.

I somehow missed a sharpie marker in my apron. It didn't come apart in the wash, the wash was fine, no, I didn't know about it til I took the wash out of the dryer...where it HAD come apart and done it's damage.

I would curl up and disappear right now if I could.

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Plants died
Becoming coal
Becoming diamonds
Diamonds paired with promises of forever
Dinosaurs died
Becoming oil
Oil that's processed
So I can get from here to there
Plants and dinosaurs they live on
But I wonder
When you die
Do you think
You'll be anything
Do anything
Anything at all?

2/23/07

It's a long way down
And there are rocks
Jagged edges quietly waiting
It's a long way down
And you'll be Graded
They're waiting to see how well you'll land
It's a long way down
So enjoy the view
Because I promise it won't last
It's a long way down
So many cheered your uphill climb
So many more beg for blood and await your fall
It's a long way down
It's a long way down
It's a long way...

2/23/07

( Christmas Week For A Boy Named Red... )

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To one Ms. deirdre_c, thank you for the cup of cocoa and the well wishes that accompanied it. You are truly made of awesome. :D *bear hug*

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Last night I reminded mom that Supernatural was going to be new, and that she best watch it. While we were on the phone she was all, "Ooo this looks like a scary one...(wait for it)...oh wait, they're all scary" *shakes head and laughs* Oh how I love you, Mom. I let her go so she could focus on watching it, but half way through she calls me to tell me, "Oh you're really gonna like this one a lot, it's a good one" and then "But have some kleenex handy". Get you're minds out of the gutter people, she meant it had the potential to be a tearjerker. :P

So mom's pretty accurate with what will and won't affect me.

[This next bit's cut for spoilers, not that's they're particularly spoilery, but you never know, you know?]

( At the end when... )

In happier news, I should be getting a care package from mom today (yay! comic books!), and tomorrow Barb and I are hanging out, so, you know, good times-good times. :)

How are all of you doing? I seriously want to know.

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Next Monday is it. I fly out of here (Appleton, WI) around noon and head towards my new life in Seattle, WA.

I'm excited and scared all at the same time.

I'm leaving behind everyone I know and love, and sometimes I think I'm crazy.

As of tomorrow my computer will be packed up, and I won't be back online until the first week in December at the earliest. I'll miss you guys terribly. Forgive my absence. I'm sure you understand.

Happy Thanksgiving in advance, and I'll talk to all again real soon.


Peace and Copious Amounts Of Love,
Red

P.S.

Barb, I cannot thank you enough. You have made this move so much more bearable and so much less frightening. I will never be able to thank you enough. *tackle hug*

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Today's my brother Josh's birthday

This is Josh----> <---adorable right? :D

Happy Birthday Josh!



I love you to death, bro. I'm so blessed to have a brother like you. Have The Happiest Of Birthdays, little brother.

Lots of Love Bro,
Red